Jasmine

I remember

Today I remembered you.

I remembered our family.

I remembered our dreams.

I remembered how we sang together.

I remembered our first kiss.

I remember the butterflies in my stomach when you touched me - that I’ve felt with no-one else.

I remember when you moved in.

I remember the ring and what it meant for us.

I remembered how our daughter’s face lit up when you played peek-a-boo.

I remembered when we went to the zoo.

I remembered our daughter’s wonder as we walked through the butterflies. I remember both of your faces, filled with wonder.

I remember how you let her ride on your back, pretending to be a horse.

I remember how you dressed up to be the easter bunny to bring her joy.

I remembered how she fell asleep in your arms - as you lay on the couch watching a show.

I remembered how you held me to sleep.

I remember not doing everything on my own.

I remember not feeling lonely.

I remember not feeling so financially stretched.

And then I remember the gun.

And then I remember the hands around my neck.

I remember our daughter scared.

I remember the police.

And I remember that we’re better off without you.